Just Dream

So everything's back to normal. Like how it had been before chinese new year. 2 weeks of holiday really syok!But before i could crave for more, alas it's the end of it already. =(

Chinese new year was quite boring this year. My friends felt the same. Wonder is it because we're 21 this year, or it really wasn't as meriah as before. Did a lot of catching up with friends, realised that many haven't changed. The pretty ones got prettier, and wise ones got wiser.

I actually had to work 5 days during CNY, but i only worked for 4 days. Mainly because i couldn't really stand the stress and tiredness. A lot of changed at my work place. A LOT. It was no longer the place that i love working at. So many rules to comply that made work a burden. Most of the colleagues i'd known before left too. =( But i'm proud that i managed to earn a bit of pocket money . Wee ~

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It's been a torturous day for me. Started to have signs of gastric since 12 pm, quickly munched down one Chicken Sandwich from Sugarbun and went to Yiing's house for new year visiting. Alas, things din't get any better. Actually vomited at her house, and wonder if i was capable of driving home myself. Upon reaching home, quickly rushed back to my room and laid down on bed to relieve myself.

But it din't get any better. Vomited a couple of times again, while the pain continued to get more and more intense. Started to have cold sweats, which made me hot and cold alternately. I was all curled up in bed, for nearly 2 hours. I did take medication, but i kept vomiting, and that rendered it useless i guess. I know i kept praying and praying, try all sorts of relieving factors, but to no avail. It was really a torture. The pain had withdrew my strength and my 4 limbs felt so weak. The pain continued for 2 hours.

mum suggested that i get to the doc, altho it was getting better. Doc said my blood pressure was low, and my"intestine was heaty", i don't really understand the meaning, doc prescribed me 3 types of medicine. Cooked porridge for myself since i felt better, and my tummy was empty. I only took 3-4 spoon, and the pain came back to haunt me. I went back to bed, and the same thing repeated, only no vomitting this time.

I'm exhausted now. Felt weak. No appetite. Only drank milo with crackers, and nestle for this whole day. Couldn't go to my friend's 21st birthday party. =( I guess i spoilt my intestine. Ah bad experience. sniff sniff.

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Plenty of stuff on my mind now. Non important ones, and quite important ones. Sigh. Donno how to sort things out. Only know i have many things to think, many things to settle. I'm just worrying, but not trying to think any solution to those matters cos it seemed too much. Sigh.

Life is again full of choices. When there's a choice, will it make things easier ? Or do you rather it to be no choices at all ?

Hmmm..

Happy Chinese New Year again. Working tomolo. GAH!.

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So EOB is over. Feel so ever liberated. This time my coursemates are EVEN more excited to go back. Cos chinese new year is just around the corner =D . Feel happy for them too. Sadly, I never get to experience how it feels like to miss home, and having to return after 2 months away from home. I don't know how it's like.

So, coursemates left, and my old friends are back. More like a transition period. All of a sudden I'll need to see a new set of faces that were once so familiar to me. Wonder if things will be the same again ?

1 week to go before chinese new year, but where did the CNY mood go? The feeling wasn't as strong as before i guess. My mum started baking cookies, everyday i could smell the aroma of freshly baked cookies coming from the kitchen. Ah. Irresistable. I bet i'll start gaining weight even before new year starts. =3

2 weeks of sedentary lifestyle. Heck no. I'll be working on 16th , 21st - 24th. Yeah pretty strange eh ? Well, i have my reason behind. Guess i really need to start doing house chores and tidy my study room starting from tomorrow. *sigh*

Better spend this 2 weeks to the fullest! =D YEEeeeharr!!

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1. Head over to Saberkas and get a new VGA for my pc. Along will a 19" LCD. =D
2. Sell out my k750i and get a new phone with the biggest memory card capacity.
3. Ask for a new car. =P Any car also can.
4. Treat my good friends for a sumptous meal.
5. Book air ticket to KL over the weekend and shop till i drop.
6. Get a new collection of medical books.
7. Do a lil charity
8. Go for a hair make over.
9. Pay a visit to Marie France Bodyline =P
10. .....

Wow.. dreaming can be so syok one.

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Once in every 2 months, i must say this.. : I'm so not prepared for EOB.

This time is the worst. I find myself staring at the same lecture note, same slide for minutes even though EOB is just days away. Before I would have started panicking and lock myself in room.

Again, i hate anatomy. Studying something you don't like is a chore. But i know how important it is for a medical student. It's all about how much i can memorise everything in a few days time and regurgitate all of em in the 2 hours exam on monday. I seriously need to change my attitude , and i mean today!!!

Something's clouding my thoughts these days. My mind's like a mesh of collagen fibres entangled together. XD Life's all about making choices. The most classic example is

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UNIMED refers to the medical society under UNIMAS, formed by medical students, for medical students. To join the election, you must have be nominated, and have a seconder. But no campaigning going on lar.

First time experiencing this kind of election. Battle between races. It sure was an exciting one.
The voting wasn't sth like what we had during election day, when there's cubicles for u to cast ur vote. It's merely a show of hands. This is the tricky part. Who vote for who, one glance across the auditorium, you'd know it. Very dangerous.

Of course, few of the chinesedid step out for a post in the committee board. Wasn't that easy actually. I can say that it involved strategy & tactics. Having the potential and leadership aren't suffice to win a "seat" in the board. You need votes. And the reality is, chinese will only vote for chinese, malays for malays,and such. I'm not saying it happens all the time, but it did happen MOST of the time. Sometimes no matter how united you are (among ur own race), you'll still be outnumbered. This is sth very appalling.

It was definitely very tense when the election was going on, especially while waiting for the result. Right after that you can hear people cheering, and people sighing. It really was a moment of glory when u realise your friends manage to win the election. You feel proud. It's really like a war. You fight with dignity and honor. Hahahaha.

I competed for the post of PRO (Public Relation Officer) and Director. I lost to my Malay coursemate by only 4 votes for the election of PRO, but i won the Director post. I had a mixed feeling after that, wonder if i should be glad, or i shouldn't be. Comparing these 2 post, maybe what i really wanted was Director, but just by 4 votes, i could have gotten the PRO post. ARgh, you know those feelings.

I salute and respect those malays who actually voted for the Chinese. I really respect them. I'm certain that some consequences would follow, and i feel sorry. Again, SALUTE . We really appreciate those votes. Thanks for standing up and believing in us.

Also, this election is an eye-opener. Coursemates whom i thought were "benign" were damn "malignant". Could never guess they were so sly behind that mask. Everyone has the right to choose and vote. One can never be forced to vote for someone else.

So as for the final outcome, chinese won 6 posts(approx. 40 %) of the board, compared to last year 5. The happy part was my other 4 close friends are in the board too, 1 vice president, 3 directors.

And thanks for those who voted for me. =) And the smile u gave while i was up in front before my election. I guess you'd never know it meant so much to me.

What awaits us, i donno. But this is sth new. Sth fresh.

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Among the crowd, i saw u. I saw your smile.

I was mesmerized.

And i had all the support i needed.

Thanks.

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