Sunday, January 28, 2007

Quiet Emotions
by Judy Burnette
I always wanted more from you
than you were willing to give;
So now we've gone our separate way
seach with different lives to live.
The bond will always be there
the friendship always intact;
But the time for us has come and gone
and the pages of time, you can't turn back.
I will always be a friend to you
and wonder how you are;
The smiles and laughter I will remember
and our fights have become painless scars.
Sometimes on those busy days
when you've a thousand things to do;
Please let me glide slowly through your mind
and spend some time with you.In that quiet moment
when you're surprised to find me there;
Just remember even with the distance between us
I am still someone who cares.

Sometimes after every quiet disagreements and scars,
things just can't be the same ain't it? :(

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

why is it always...

C+ ?
I felt kinda lost. Anatomy is definitely not my field, not my cuppa tea. It just felt so different from other books. The feeling of being lost whilst reading those description and intepreting those anatomical illustration. I wanted to study hard, but i donno where to start. I need guidance.
I feel so perplexed now. Feelings all mixed up. Which is true and which is fake? I used to be quite certain but now i'm confused.
Aih...

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

I'm disappointed.

I feel so abandoned.

I feel so unwanted too.

I'm unhappy.

I'm angry.

Why did i even bother to hesitate in the first place?

Sunday, January 21, 2007

Another Birthday


2 birthday celebration in a week. Syok. This time we're having it a MyHouse steamboat at Pending. 2 birthday in a month had oredi made all of us terribly $broke$ T___T And there's two more birthday celebration coming up next week. Wow.
Just finished my quiz and I'd rate it as "so-so". Not hoping to excel in it, but then let's just pray I wouldn't fail. Tomolo will mark the beginning of a busy week. Class till 7 pm everyday, sometimes with only 2 hours break in between. Can't take it physically sometimes.
In less than a month,......
all my friends will be back here in kch.
all my coursemate will be back to their hometown.
we'll be having Chinese New Year.
Being 21 years old, i guess i can't expect many angpaos anymore eh? =P

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

Random

I'm slacking. Lost the will to study hard. for the donno-how-many times, I'm so gonna fail my quiz again. Just drank coffee, don't intend to sleep early. Rather push myself to the limit than to see a big F/D/C- for my result.

New year's 1 month away. I'm not so looking forward to it. New year means busy, crowdy, and tired. Don really like it. =/ But this time I'll be having 2 weeks holiday for new year, let me rust at home. Half way thru the 4th block, another block to go and we're finishing our 1st year. Man that was fast. I've been spending for over half year in UNIMAS, and it only felt like yesterday when i had my orientation.

Ah. Forgot to say this.
I'm going to KL again!!!!
Not so soon tho. Will be going there in may. =P Got the free tickets from airasia. Syok. Steam. This time i'll be going for 1 week, cos I intend to head to penang, and perak, and genting. WEeee.. the thought of it oredi thrills me. I can't wait i can't wait I CAN'T WAIT!!! But heck , another 4 more months to go. But still, there's sth for me to look forward to. =)

No class tomolo. But quiz on friday. Then Family Health Posting on Saturday. Hmmm.. sien.

Again, i should remind myself to be cautious while blogging. Hmm.. =.=

Ok back to my lecture notes. Donno how to die this friday.

Sunday, January 14, 2007

Birthday Celebration @ Elephant


Yesterday night I managed to attend a birthday celebration for my coursemate, Karl. I suggested the place "Elephant" since my west m'sian mates love western food. There were 14 of us, and only 3 cars would fit all of us in. It was supposed to be a surprise for the birthday boy and so we waited at the place since ... 7 pm, but he only arrived at 745 due to some technical problems. XD






This is sth i ordered : Mixed grilled for RM 16.90. I heard from friends that the Cajun Fish and Spaghetti there are quite nice. But then the oreo milk shake is very the nice. =) RM 6.80 per cup.



It was a fun and wild night. Took loads of photos and videos. At least there's sth for us to look back when we graduate in the future. Glad that i have this bunch of crazy coursemates which never make me regret applying for this course. Medical course will never be dull with them.


On my right the hands belongs to 6 girls, holding each other's thumbs and little fingers. May we walk hand in hand for the next coming 5 years.

*any good place for western food? Do suggest a few for me .

Friday, January 12, 2007

Rainbow is here. =)

After i've long awaited, it's finally here.

My heart feel so light at this moment.No worries. I'm smiling. Finally everything is settled.

Not every breakup involves hatred, or even blood shed. It can be done in a peaceful , sweet way. I din't wanna feel sad for it ended, but i am really glad that it happened.

To Alan,

Thank you. =) You're the very best.
To my readers and friends,
I'm really very fine. Stop asking me how am i lar. =.= (but thanks for the concern :P)
Enjoy the rainbow!!: )

Lost.

Had a PBL discussion this noon. I felt like i know nothing. Everyone was so into the discussion, sharing their ideas and opinions, and i was yawning aside. I felt bad. I felt like I wasted too much time few days ago, doing nothing, thinking things that i shouldn't be thinking. Quiz is one week away, and i'm very much determined to make it the best one yet. But getting those muscles, bones, joint names into my brain ain't no easy task either. =/ Somemore starting from next week we'll be starting our generic courses, which would mean class until 7 pm everyday (except thursday and including saturday). The thought of it oredi make me boh lat . =(

I used to read
Treat people like how you want them to treat you.
But then, how true is that? i don't think it's 100% applicable though. And that made me feel even more like a ... dumbo for being so nice to certain people. Maybe we should just learn to tolerate, and life will go on like how it is . Less problem, more happiness.

Time to study. Chiong!

Thursday, January 11, 2007

I kinda like how things are now. I am happy. I am contented. : )

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

Driving.

I'm just so tired of driving.

I've been doing the same thing for the past half year. Going back and forth from faculty everyday. Although it's not very far, still, it's tiring. Somemore i need to pick up friends from my faculty if we need to go out together. I'm not complaining that I'm reluctant to pick em from faculty, cos it's fun hanging out with them too, but still it's .. tiring. But then when some people take you for granted, you'll feel worthless.

I don wanna drive. I wanna be driven. =(

You understand the feeling or not.

Saturday, January 06, 2007

The first thing that everyone asked me in MSN few days back was for sure....

Are u ok?
Thank you all. I'm very touched. Thank you for reaching out for me.

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

New year, new beginning.

I'd be lying if I claimed that i'm not sad over what happened. I'm upset, but i'm fine. It's a matter of how i should stand up again after each and every fall. Thanks for all those concerns. It really made my day a lot better. I'm healing. =)

Things really din't go my way since mid November, first there's serious friendship problem, then my car mirror got smashed, got bitten by dog (ended up getting vaccinated in the hospital), first day of 2007 my dog passed away, then now... i broke up with my boyfriend. When i thought things couldn't possibly be worst, there came the worst. My mood's down the cliff.. falling and falling.

A friend sang a song to me,

雨過應該就會天晴吧,誰說天黑就一定要下雨呀。戀愛中有人被打垮, 有人長大
And it made me smile. I'm hoping that all the series of unfortunate events will come to a halt. TIRED is really the right word to describe how i felt for the past few weeks. Hoping things could go up hill once again. Afterall, new year new beginning.
Enough with those emo thingy. New year celebration. I had a party at my house with my coursemates. most of them were glued to the TV watching astro (since there's no astro in hostel Duh.. ) ... while others play cards and uno stacko. It was really fun.
At around 1130, we shifted to Taman Sahabat. Perhaps an odd place to count down but we did find a few gang of teenagers doing the same there too, playing fire crackers. There were around 20 of us, doing silly things which I never tot i would do. Too bad i forgot to bring my champagne along =( . And it's too dark to take photos there. After that we went to McDonald since Jln Pandungan was soooo jammed. =( I only slept at 5 am that day, had pillow talk with my coursemates. =) nice experience for me.

Not in the mood to think about new year resolutions yet. I really thank those coursemates who were there for me, who gave up their valuable time to play with me instead of studying, and let me bully them.

No one can promise an easy life ahead of us. It all depends on how we live it.

Lazy upload photo. next time.

Tuesday, January 02, 2007





We broke up.

Ouch.....

Monday, January 01, 2007

Goodbye.

Mood's down the cliff again.

My dog, ... just passed away. My heart aches as i type this.

I'm emotionally tired of the sequence of events happening around me lately.

I need to breathe. I want to be carefree after a long while of tiredness. I want to sleep without having to think of all those unresolved matters.

I want to believe that there'll be rainbow after the rain.

And now i'm desperately waiting for the rainbow to appear.



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