Tuesday, April 03, 2007

Losing Mi Amor.

I love blogging.

It's been one of my passion since years ago. A place that i can resort to when I am down. A place where i can share my joys and happiness to others. A place for me to reflect how i had been for the past few days, months and even years. Everything about blogging, i like. From the HTML codes of the template, to the blog posts, i love em.

My blog. Something very nostalgic to me.

But i can't do it anymore. I feel so much constrained that before. For me, blogging is about expressing one's feeling and thought. No one has the right to interfere with whatever i'm blogging. But still. I feel so constrained. I can't blog freely anymore. I have to watch whatever I'm writing about, so as not to offend anyone, so as not to bring myself unnecessary trouble.

If that's the case, why blog?

This blog has loses its meaning to me. So i don't wanna do it anymore. I can't feel the joy of it. It's more like writing an article for my own journal than expressing my inner feelings. Of course, there are other more important reasons behind my decision.

One thing I'll miss is definitely my fellow readers who constantly read this blog since i started blogging years back. I thank you all. *bow* I appreciate those comments you left behind, especially when my days were blue, my soul was lost, and my heart was broken. Those few words of yours made a difference to me. It did. =) I'll miss em!!!!!

And sorry. I know I had offended few of you since i blogged. I'm truly sorry. Wasn't intentional. That's what happens when i can too caught up in blogging.

And to those who read this blog to keep in touch with me, thanks for the effort. I'm sure there'll be some way we can keep in touch again. =)

Doing all this with a heavy heart. Goodbye peeps. Thanks. Hugs.

Perhaps, just perhaps i might blog again. But not the near future. Need a break. =)

Saturday, March 31, 2007

I am very stress now.

Help.

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Life's been busy. Having my 5th week for Block 5, and 6th week will be the last. Assignments for G & C courses are piling up. No time to get into some serious studying at all. Again, Block 5 EOB down the drain perhaps. =( It's all about time and stress management now. Wanting to achieve the best out of everything I do is quite hard, especially when you have so many tasks to juggle with now. *sigh*

Guess i haven't blogged about my hair. One week ago i went to highlight my hair. i did it out of impulse. To be frank, I was in a very very foul mood that very day and I made up my mind to highlight my hair in few minutes. (normally it'd take days.) When i realised what i was doing, i was already at the saloon half way through the process already. But no regrets! I spent RM 100 on everything. The outcome is rather obvious. Received some positive negative comments. One said i look more "lala" now. Grrr.. wanna bite his head off when i heard that. Anyway, nasi sudah jadi bubur. I'd just have to accept my new look eh ? (photos next time)


2 days ago i had a chinese new year celebration at my fac. It was fun! Looking back at the photos made me feel rather sweet. =D I dressed up as an indian since i was on of the ushers that night. Borrowed a Sari from my indian coursemate and it was fun wearing em (tho i felt a bit sexy exposing my back and shoulder tat night =P) And out of the blue, i actually won 3rd place for the calligraphy competition. WOW. Really a big surprise that night for me. All in all, it was a great night!

Nicest group photo ever! Cheers.

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

Utterly disappointed by myself.

I expected more than a B-.

Turn my mood upside down the moment i see the alphabet B- beside my matrix number on the notice board.

Ah. disappointment. i hate disappointment.

Oh well. Try harder next time. =(

Friday, March 16, 2007

Random Pics again.


And so quiz is over. For the first time i woke up at 2 am to study, until the moment i went into the examination hall. Perhaps I'm expecting something out of myself this time. Sadly, with all the preparation i've done for the past few days, it did not make me feel anydifferent from the previous quiz. Still feel so doomed.

This word reads "SHI". It was made out of Mandarin Oranges, part of the programme during the Chap Goh Meh celebration at my coursemate's house. =D

Night at siang siang. Not exactly the best place to have supper tho. Went yam cha with my kawan the other day. Very the smoky. =(

And i went to Bla Bla Bla last night. Only for a drink tho. My friend (as shown on the pic above) ordered Lamb Chop which costed arond RM 25. But heck, look at the portion and the plate. It's actually times 3 of my friend's face. O.o And it actually tasted quite nice!!! Bravo.

Feel so lazy now. Gonna have PBL discussion and english exam tomolo and report to be handed in next week. I hate all these tight schedules. And yea, congrats to all STPMers. Great result from SMK Green Road. May We Grow As One.

Gonna start procrastinating now. See ya.

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

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1.16 am.

Despite how physically and mentally tired i am now, I'm still awake. 2 more days to quiz, and it ain't enough for me to remember all the 10 pathways we learnt for the past 2 weeks. Bad sign. I'm expecting something out of myself this time. Hopefully I won't get the same result like block 1, 2 , 3, 4. =( I need a change. Very sick and tired of getting the same result over and over again. Exerting a small amount of pressure on myself once a while won't hurt i guess.

I actually feel so weak typing this. I want to rest. But still, i feel the need to get back to my books .

I have to work hard. I need to work hard. I must work hard.

Sunday, March 11, 2007

Disappointment hits me real hard this time.

I'm so not myself now. I'm upset. boo.



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